Monday, October 24, 2005
Oh my.... Has it been so long? Life has been insane over on Planet April Love. I wouldn't even know where to begin.I just found out that I have a little brother. This from a veteran only child. You may remember an incident in which my lovely father "dated" a very young woman. I believe she was a mere three years my senior. Eww... Gross. Anyway, apparently Daddy got his ugly on with said girl and spawned a baby boy. We just found out and he's one and a half. He was scared to tell me. Apparently he thought that I would have a meltdown. Nah. It's strange and at first I was thrown, but I'm feeling better about it. On the surface, it's like "What's the big? You're almost 27 years old.... Get over it and live." I get that perspective. The tough part is that my dad wanted a boy my whole life, and we have just created a relationship in recent years. So, it's difficult for me to see my dad help raise a baby, when he didn't have much to do with raising me. He was around, physically, but anything other than yelling at me and then buying a great toy to fix it was my mom's job. I can't help but be a little excited about having a baby in the family.
We'll see.
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Friday, November 12, 2004
Yeah... That's my boo.
April Love just very nearly sassed you at 2:28 AM;
Life is a highway. I wanna ride it all night long.
Just a thought.Oooooh! I have a new obsession. My friend Ron and I are hooked on American Chopper. The O.C.C. BABY! Ron wants to do Paulie and I kinda wanna do Mikey. It's fun. Yeah, I guess you could say we're deep thinkers.
I highly recommend it.In other news.... I found myself a second job for the jovial holiday season. At a music store no less. One would think that one of the joys of working in a music store would be getting to listen to good music. Right? Alas no. Apparently, a corporate visit is anticipated so we must follow company standards for a week or so, then it's back to the good stuff. I can't wait.
I don't understand. I can't stomach Christmas music until I've had turkey. Let me have Thanksgiving.... some paper turkeys and cornacopias and such... a few ceramic pilgrims... Sneak those songs in on me as I enjoy a sandwich of left over turkey so dry that I need a 2-liter. Please? I guess I shall have to embrace the force fed holiday season. Cest la vie.
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Thursday, November 11, 2004
It feels as though months have passed since we spoke last. It's been just over two weeks. Sixteen days actually. I think of you daily as I always have. I wonder if you allow me to cross your mind and if so what these thoughts consist of. My heart is healing. I have days when I just want to fall into your arms as I once did. I battle those days less often lately. I have finally mustered the courage to be ready when love finds me again. That's the scariest part of all. Opening myself up to be broken again. Maybe I'll just keep getting stronger. Nothing in life is in vain. Everything culminates to make us who we are. I hope you're doing well. Deep down, I hope that you think of me often....
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Saturday, October 30, 2004
I am extremely nervous about the upcoming election. It's historic really. For the first time, an election is in the hands of young America. We will decide the fate of our great country. There has been at least a twenty percent spike in voter registration among 18-25 year olds.... I couldn't be happier. I, of course, have my opinion, but I'm just hoping to see young people go out and vote no matter who they vote for. I think that we, especially young women, must stand for our basic rights at this pivotal time. Anyone who knows me is well aware that I will be casting my vote for John Kerry. No matter who you choose to vote for, be informed. Make sure that you know the whole story and not just what the media feeds us. Don't get me wrong, I love the news... I love magazines... And there are actually a few that I trust, I'm just saying, do your homework. And no matther what.... Get off your asses and vote on Tuesday. This is the one, and only, time that I can not support my fellow slackers. It's time that the future of America raise our voices and stand for what we believe in.Only time will tell.....
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Wednesday, October 27, 2004
At 19, I thought that I had fallen in love for life. Although he would haunt me for years, and may possibly continue to for life, we didn't last. I loved him from the tips of my fingers to my toes. One of those all consuming loves. The kind that could quite possibly ruin a young girls life. And it almost did. It seems so obvious. Just walk away.... Forget about him. Not so easy. I thought that I had gotten him out of my system. But when I find myself sleeping alone and dateless on Saturday night, it was easier than it should have been to go there again. I was lonely and I knew that he cared. He said he was getting married... To her.... The girl that he left me for. I had played it coy for so long, but I relented. I asked him to be with me..... To not get married and be with me. He declined. He loves me... He wanted to be with me... But it was too late... He couldn't turn back now. That's what he said. I wonder how it is possible to love one person and marry another. I fear that he just apeased me. He was always a master at saying what I wanted to hear. It's just easier to believe that he loves us both. He did marry her. My heart breaks at just the thought of it. I knew it would hurt, and it does, but I've had a revelation. This sets me free. It's over. I'll never feel again like I did with him. We will never be together again. All within the confines of two weeks, I've let him go and I've faced all the truths about the other man I've loved. I feel empty right now, but it'll all come around. It always does. Now I can properly move forward. I can drop those walls and insecurities built by them.I hope he's happy...
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